Wow we did it.
A whole month.
We made it through this entire month together, talking (almost) everyday and I haven’t gotten too annoyed with you!
July, I’m always surprised by how busy our time is together.
We went to several parties together, hung out with some of our favorite friends, went to freshman orientation and had our last camp.
July, we faced our creative blocks, and our struggles to keep hold of reality.
July we made a lot of dumb decisions and said a lot of dumb things.
July, we doubted ourselves, we doubted each other, we doubted our friends, we doubted our faith.
But, July, you helped me rebuild.
You gave me new relationships and the confidence that maybe I’m not as bad at making friends as I thought.
July, you’ve helped meet realize who I can hold on to and who it’s time to let go.
You gave me space to think and process everything happening.
July, you gave me coping mechanisms- I mean, who would’ve guessed I’m really into watercolor painting.
July, I’m still really scared about what’s going to happen after I leave you tonight until I see you again, but I think I have a bit more confidence that I can do it.
Because July, I’m allowed to give myself my best chance. And I’m allowed to have people help me figure things out when my mind is too clouded.
Please don’t worry about me, July.
I think I’ll be just fine.
I’ll miss you!
Until we meet again-
Love, Nikki Robinson